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Post by Arietta Ostinato on Nov 5, 2019 1:24:59 GMT
Do you want to read about the drama of Arciel's favorite idol, Arietta Ostinato?! All the ups and downs of her interactions with her evil exes, of hair-dye tutorials, dance-tutorials, song recommendations , all that good stuff? Then, my friends, you've come to the right place! Every post is commentable- if you'd like your character to leave a comment just send me an icon, their username and what they comment to the post and i'll edit it in!
INDEX PAGE 1:
Post 1) Opening
Post 2) Dancing With My Demons?! - Halloween Ball
Post 3) Gossip Travels Quick - 4/12/19 Post 4) Happily Never After - 9/2/20 Post 5) Loose Ends and Tutus - 1/4/20
Uhhh, hi lovelies! Did you all have fun at the Halloween event?! I know for a fact some of you went! If you haven’t guessed already by some of the pics I put up to my socials yesterday- I was Gardevoir! Some of you might have even danced with me- or, if you were one of the twenty girls who I saw in the bathroom, we even had a little discussion!
Now, the Masquerade ball is always something to look forward to, especially during Halloween. Dancing is my guilty pleasure, and I actually adoooore it. But tonight was a little different- you know how the last time I posted I told you guys all about the meetups with number 7 and number 5? How some pretty fucked situations went down- yeah. My life is kinda spiralling, but it was fine, totally and utterly fine. I was gonna like... dance away everything, because who has time for facing assholes who broke your heart? Or at least- assholes who can make you believe, for second that you’ve travelled back in time, that make your heart beat fast, and for a second you forget the fucking shit they did- who has time for them?!
Totally not me, I promise! Oh, whats that-
Apparently I did! Oopsieee... During an anonymous event. I’m not gonna talk about it- at all. My head hurts, heart kinda hurts, and I’m… a little bit in shock, to be super honest. Instead- you know what we should talk about?! My green hair! cc: Dyed green to suit my costume, isn’t it the cutest thing you’ve ever seen?! Liiike here, one of the girls took this pic before our Halloween radio interview- which might I add was super fun, and thank PichuPacs at 9 for having us!
Maybe not as light as I wanted, but doesn’t it make my eyes just pop?! It’s gotta be one of my favourite colours that I’ve worn all year, like, imagine me in a cute matching costume on stage?! The limelight would love it. I might try out more colours this year, but I dunno-
Back to the assholes who ate my heart- kinda got a headache. Dunno. Dunnodunnodunno. Like okay, girlies, dudies and all you nerds, what would you do in my sitch? Honestly I’m kinda torn. What if you were forced to face somebody who broke you down into nothing and still to this day leaves you feeling insecure about every little thing you do in your relationships because you’re suuuuper scared- and they were nice, and they- like?! What do you do?
Because obviously I organised for them to maybe meet up with me. It felt right- and as fucked as my evil exes are, giving them a chance- at maybe friendship, at repairing what they’ve done when they seem honest enough? It seems… kinda reasonable. and- and- and now there's two of them back in my life- and my heart hurts- and everything hurts- why do I feel so sick?!
Like... I- kinda accidentally told one under anonymity I was falling in love with them on the dancefloor, I got kissed by two exes and if that doesn't infuriate you yet make your mind utterly go numb then- what does it do?! Liek what's a girl supposed to think?! It's like I was dragged right back into some sort of sit com where i'm the butt of every joke-
I just remembered I said I wasn't gonna talk about it- don't mind me! Let's just uuh, pretend I didn't say anything.
But yeah, enough about that! Leave your comments below, I need advice y’all! What did you dress up with? Did I do the wrong thing? Were you one of the girls I gave a ticket to? Tell me everything!
It's December! Lettt's start on a light note. We've seen a few hints of snowfall here and there, so I can only hope you all have your hot choccy supplies ready! It's looking to be a cold christmas, but that also means that there's more room for dancing to keep you warm and up and about! More jogs, more exercising, anything to keep your body warm and stuff! I hope all your Decembers have been off to a good start!
Mine had a pretty... rocky start, after all the drama from last month I was more than ready to just sleep it off and move forward, things were looking okay, and meeting up with that ex went okay, as fucked as the very idea was. We met up a few times after that- but some of you guys will be relieved to here that we won't be meeting up again- after one thing.
I'm... kinda in a state of shock. I was going to post the other day but got busy. Basically, i'm going to be in pikateen weekly! They've got a three page spread for me and my team, and I was out early doing some photoshoots- it was actually a lovely day! And things were going great- but an ex... y'know, obviously saw. One of my lovely readers actually saw this, a reporter- should out to you Rosie, and pointed out it was Gabe Alim! Yes, the Gabe. I won't get into the drama that happened here but.... arceus kill me.
Now Gabe. Gabe had invited me out to dinner- I didn't confirm earlier but... it was Gabe who was one of the exes from Halloween. I asn't going to reveal this, but fuck it things change. I went out to dinner with him and by arceus i'm a stupid ass bitch. Sorry for the language lovelies- but what is wrong with me?! You'll be glad to know it ended with a promise to never meet again, but things have become... a little more complex. I'm familiar with love, i'm familiar with the feeling- but i'm not familiar with falling back in love with somebody after you fucked them over.
I'm not familiar with being able to fully move on from shit that changed the way you view things- long time followers will know the messed up things that happened back in 2015ish, I think? Hell probably even 2014 lol. You can't just pretend that never happened. So what would you do if you found yourself sitting at a table with somebody who abandoned you who's suddenly confessing- when you don't know what they want? What do you do when part of you's still 15, just wanting this person to be happy?! Obviously, you try help them move on, because for as evil as they are, as fucked as the things they've done, they at least deserve that.
I've moved on- others need to.
ESPECIALLY WHEN THEY HAVE A FUCKING GIRLFRIEND.
You heard me right, folks. Gabe has a girlfriend, and he still... yeAH- I can't believe it either. That is why there's kinda been a wrench thrown in my plans. She found me at the dance studio and now we're gonna be working together to hopefully explain everything to Gabe and get things right- because... if I had ever known Gabe had a girlfriend- if I had known that this poor innocent girl was going through this shit.... like...
...I'd never have met up with him again! And now, right, i'm just... trapped??? I have to speak to Gabe again, I have to face and deal with all this stupid shit in my life- and i'm currently beginning to practice for the PNG annual Christmas concert! I hope you all have your tickets, because they're on sale now! I'm also preparing for my Bass City concert next week, pleeeassse come!
But that's what's going on in my hellhole of a life. I've already heard from various websites that one of the reporters from the gossip mag has begun going around telling people me and Gabe are a thing due to the photography scandal, I promise we aren't. He has a kind, loving girlfriend... and I can only hope that he won't abandon her, isolate her and fuck her over like he did to me.
I'd love to think he's changed, that he's a different Gabe. But... I dunno- what do you guys think?
Winters here, so is the drama! Chuck on your chrissy hats and get the tea ready!
Again, new years, hectic life- all in the name of being an Idol! I'd love to come back here on a lighter note, but as of right now there's not really any light notes to touch upon- and i'd know, my parents are all about light notes. This January has been a total, and utter mess- and i've been threatened with being hacked if I go in detail with it... but I can imagine from the press releases, and from things that you've seen that you get the jist of what happened and why i've been so quiet.
I've been really confused lately, really tired- i've had to lighten up on all my dancing and take time to take a step back and breathe- there's only so much a girl can go through, y'know? Some part of me just wants to collapse and never wake up again, but only a little bit of me ofc- I can't drop dead right before valetines! I think i've done something bad. I know I have- so don't go jumping the gun here.
Now, I think we'll have to postpone any events that had been set for Ivy Town- I don't think i'll be able to step foot there for months- long time fans know why I can barely go there, but... after the ferry incident which is covered in this PR video i literally would rather jump off the ferry then show up there- we'll refund all tickets and everything, and host one in the closet town possible!
I'm hoping to at least lay back this month. My throat hurts, my head hurts and I think?? I'm dealing with a lot of emotions that I can't settle on. I'll summarize again so I don't get hacked- and if you're the hacker seeing this? I have security in place, all IP's are being tracked. I have backups saved on 12 different websites. Please, leave me alone. You've done enough- i've done enough.
Anyway! Sorry! Summary time! Ferry to ivy, got jumped by an ex's pokemon, huge PR nightmare- another ex got involved a little after- true blue chaos. But everything will be okay! I have to go to the doctors for a few checkups and hopefully my voice hasn't suffered any strainage from the event that's occured. Our next event'll be in Plum in a few weeks, so I hope some of you will be there to cheer!
Sorry if i'm a little quiet the next few weeks guys, i'm still sorted out a lot with the PR team, pretty sure they kinda hate me rn but we'll be chill and cool! For now keep dancing and going strong, because that's what i'm doing! You're all fire!
the most romantic dance isn't tango- it's whatever makes you feel most at home!
So... life's worse, if that was at all possible. And I know you're all getting sick of the dramafest that was, err... is?? The last couple of months?? But it's not over yet, and please for the love of arceus believe me when I say I want it to be over. I'm paranoid. I'm tired, my heart hurts, my head hurts. And I think... I think i've realized why. I'm not going to censor myself, take out any names, I know people want me to, because then they'll get the better of me, and they get to control the narrative but like- this is my life. This is my blog. I don't care if I get hacked, I know my fan will already have copies of this shit saved so fuck you.
Wow okay I didn't expect to already be angry so that's fun. The last few weeks i've been thinking. A lot. I've cried, idk if i've laughed I mean probably but to be more dramatic leeet's just say I haven't, yeah? I've spent wayy too long kinda ignoring my past, and this whole thing of ex boyfriends popping up in my face is probably karma for that. Which is great, exactly what I needed.
Okay i'm rambling and dodging around the point i'm trying to make lmfao. Fucking arceus. Let me get straight to the point. There's this chick, right, and I was trying to help her. Because I didn't want bad stuff to happen, I was scared that a fuckup who's all but crushed my soul and watched as I bled my heart out infront of him with no remorse would do the same to her- like- is that fair?? To be concerned for her?? I guess fuckup is too harsh uhm, cuz he's not a fuckup, but, yeah, okay. And we were gonna talk to him, because stuff happened, I think I outlined the stuff I can't be bothered reading the last blog post and sort out stuff, him being Gabe. Yeah. Shut up.
And then she turns around and loses her shit at me, just out of nowhere, swearing and just being a fucking bitch and I don't understand. I don't get it. I thought she was nice, I thought she was okay and I just- I don't understand. I get I was maybe butting in but do you fucking blame me when my ex comes out of nowhere, confesses he loves me and then I get choked out by his fucking Charmeleon on a ferry and now everywhere I look he's there or the fucking orange pokemon- wow okay help.
I'm trying not to go off i'm sorry lol. But it gets worse, it gets worse because my chest feels so wrong. My head feels so wrong. Maybe that's because it's been months, it's been months since Koray and I miss love, I miss being with people, I miss secret touches and secrets and warm hugs and blankets and warmth and being able to put all my passion into dancing, and just being able to be somebodies person. And maybe somebody mentioning that... they stilll... yeah... suddenly has me thinking again, about how... it's still possible, how yeah people still love me, how... wow that sounds gross lemme rephrase.
I shouldn't be thinking about love with somebody who dropkicked me and has a girlfriend SO. YEAH. AND WE'RE NOT AT THE END FOLKS because i'm going mad. It's not selfish to wanna be loved, because that usually is just a basic human thing, wanting somebody near. I get that. I want that.
I guess it also doesn't really help that my minds even more confused by the second ex who's presence is there and who's said similar things and who now that I think about it I probably haven't even properly moved on from. All of this is just driving me further and further down a road of no return, and I can't breathe, every little thing reminds me of what's happened the last few months, like I was just trying to have a jam session with the mons and was constantly changing songs because who knew fucking mamma mia songs and charlotte lawrence could literally ruin your day.
I don't know why i'm writing this, maybe talking to the girls wasn't enough, maybe my parents new restricting rules is driving me stir crazy- after the ferry incident they've become wary of me, cautious, dad even threatened to lock me in my room and put me under house arrest because arceus forbid his daughter get choked a lil' and almost fucking dies. But I guess it's my fault yeah? My fault for setting off your pokemon for doing arceus knows what, at this point I don't know. That was months ago why am I still held up on it???
Mum's been threatening therapy or something but i'm fine, I swear, just a little stiff on all this drama stuff but I swear i'm doing okay. My top priority rn is PNG so expect great things and not a hectic trainwreck where the choreography is stiff and janky because!! idols are important ahha...
Ugh. Maybe i'll buy new ballet slippers and make them really cute. Maybe I can dye my hair!! That's always fun, I haven't done that since... oh... uh... anyway! I've tried to make myself as busy as possible so I don't get trapped at home, so i'll be doing twice as many dance rehursals, and i'm gonna be taking on the teen class at my local studio!! As well at the tiny tots, which i'm super excited about.
Oh- and i'm working on the choreography for the latest single PNG are releasing, it's super cute and stuff. Sorry for the negative post I just had to get words down so my chest didn't feel as tight.
Thanks for the birthday wishes on my latest chitter post, guys! I can't appreciate any more how much you guys like, totally support me, you've been there for me through this suuuuper fucking shitty funk and it means???? So much??? Like I love each and every one of you rrading this unless you broke my heart and left me to burn, then fuck you. Aha. ANYWAYS. I'm twenty- can you guys believe that? Twenty years of craving affection, of chaos, of paving my way to success, i'm like, so totally stoked for whats to come.
It's probably not fair on you guys if I don't address the radio silence on the blog. Again, going through some stuff but nothing to worry about! Just trying to get my heart to stop going mad whenevr the very thought of specific people flows through my brain! Gotta teach it not to do positive associations with negative people! My little tikes group had their first grading session a few weeks back and almost all of them passed with flying colours, im like, so totally proud of them!!!
Oh! I've also been working with Callie on creating this suuuper cute idea i had planned into some sorta outfit, she's got so much more experience than me in that regard, especially since i'm so used to flashy revealling stage outfits, like?? My girls mean so much to me and I just- i'm rambling again. I meant to bring up my birthday!
Twenty! I got rollerskates, actually! I saw some amazing videos online and it had me thinking about trying some new choreography style, why not dance and skate?? That would look so totally cute, and like- i'd just be able to master so much more! And I could go on cute roller derby/skate dates, maybe impress some cuties who I see, who knows?!
Oh, but, on this note... it's also been a full year since i've... actually dated somebody. I've been trying, and I know i've got cheeky comments on some of my Spindagram posts with people tagging their friends who are so totally down, and while I appreciate it I just want my fairytale to happen naturally, y'know? I hope the halloween ball happens again soon, maybe i'll meet a super cute royal who can sweep me off my feet- aaaah- I need to work on a super cute dress! I have so much to do! But that's good! I can't not have something to do- i'd seriously go mad.
Not like i'm not already going mad. I'm just really, really glad I haven't... seen... them in a while- though I... haven't really been leaving my house unless neccesary either. This month everythings gonna change! I got a bunch of cute new clothes and accesories, new skates, and if nobody notices me? That's on them! I'm gonna make my twenties super cute, just you guys wait!